Pretty soon I will be going to the gym and taking my anger out on the treadmill or elliptical. So now I have to go back to my job with shitty ass management that makes me want to blow my fuckin brains out. I mean it when I say that. I am trying right now not to even cut myself but since I apparently can't get a fucking job that pays me and treat me what I am worth I mid as well.
Husband tried to make me feel better. I don't even want him to fuckin touch me. I am so sick and tired of him getting all the good jobs with the nice bosses with nice pay and each time he has shit talked every job and every boss he has ever had. At his current job he doesn't have his boss working with him so it easier for him to deal with him( easy when you really aren't dealing with them ) I just can't stand the people I work for anymore. He keeps telling me to put on my thick skin. Well you know what, this skin is fucked up and cracking like hell. Not even lotion can fix this shit.
Please try to resist cutting. You've done so well, don't let this bring you down. Stay strong.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. It's not fair how some people just seem to get all the good luck, and others who work so much better never seem to get a break.
But I'm sure you'll find somewhere amazing to work soon. Screw them, you're too good to work for that place anyway.
Love you, please stay strong for me and for yourself!
Thanks. I was starting to feel better and my husband and I got into this unspeakable argument. I will have to explain this argument at a later date.
DeleteI was about to cut but then I saw this so I wont now. I mostly keep trying to remind myself that hiding the scars would be really hard to do too.
Hang in there, Winter! I can imagine how frustrating it is for you, but please try not to cut yourself.
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I haven't cut but I am getting to the point where I am about to get really depressed because this shit is just ridiculous.
DeleteOh Winter I'm so sorry you didn't get the job. That just means that the perfect job is still out there somewhere for you, ok? Good luck hun.
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Yup need all the luck I can get.
DeleteI'm so sorry Winter you didn't get the job but please, please don't cut, no one is worth cutting yourself for.
ReplyDeleteI really believe that everything happens for a reason so I know there is another job out there for you that will be perfect for you. Don't give up hope just yet and try to stay strong. You are loved xxx
That is what my mother in law keeps telling me but when it's been 2 years going on 3 you kind of start to lose hope......
DeletePoor you! Just try and relax and enjoy your holiday :) A new job will be just around the corner just hang in there lovely lady! xx
ReplyDeleteLol I know I should be relaxing but it is kind of hard to. I went from getting ready to turn in a two week notice to oh I am going to be stuck longer in work hell.
DeleteI feel a little better today but I am still down.