Not in positive mood today

            Sorry ladies not feelin too great today.I haven't even been able to read a lot of your blogs because I am not in my positive mood.  Sadly to say I think eating is making it worse.  I was proud of myself last night for not eating the whole meal but this morning I felt like shit.
            Went out to meet my friend today.  I haven't hung out with her in months.  We use to all the time but with my husbands new job and my limited use to have the car, I haven't been out much.  Anyways we went to eat and I did okay.  Had the fries and burger no shake.  I usually always get a shake from them, I declined today.  She ordered a salad and I was the one sitting there eating a greasy burger.
             I didn't even work out today.  I felt so damn tired and I still feel tired.  I just woke up from a 3 hour nap and I still feel tired.  I have been taking that medicine so I don't know what is going on.  Anyway I am stressing about this job calling me.  They emailed me a number and stuff to contact them.  Not only do I call and leave a message like I called threw out the day( I did not leave any more messages ) the 2nd time it went straight to voice mail.  The other time it rang and then went to voice mail. 
            I keep telling myself maybe she is just off today but then this other part of my mind is telling she doesn't want you just like all the others.  She is avoiding you so she wont have to tell me they have not interest in me after.  I go back to my job in a week and I really don't want to.  I want to be able to go back in there and give them my fuckin two week notice.  I had to go to hr about my manager so I know he will give me shit right along with his bitch power hungry wife.  Not looking forward to dealing that crap.
          See you ladies on the next post and I hope to be in a much better mood then.

                 I totally need her tummy in my life.