Hi everyone. I missed you all so much! Happy new year! I figured this would be a good time as any to update how I have been doing. Those who have emailed me while I have not posted. Much appreciated, I felt so special and super loved.
Okay so I will start with the job thing first. I am still at my current job. I have had 4 interviews since during my break on here and none of them wanted me. On one job interview they told me I was the only interviewer they had ever seen to research the company and job position I was interviewing for. They said they were impressed. Yeah but not enough to give me the job though @_@
After they turned me down even though I was more than qualified. I felt like crap. I ended up cutting myself. After a good two long years I couldn't hold back anymore in that moment. Thank goodness it is winter here and I get to wear long sleeves.
I am have also choose to not continue my education in college. The community college I was trying to go to not only except 3 of my transfer classes from my old school they wanted me to take 3 math classes that had crap to do with what I wanted to take. So I was like screw it. I am just going to suck it up and start paying back on the loan. I admire anyone who is going to college but I just can't. Feels like bulls%#! They say it suppose to help you get a better. Now these companies to whine and have you come in with 1-2 years experience. Seriously ??? Like I need experience to know how to answer or be polite with quest in the waiting room. So yeah that is where I am with school.
Now to the weight loss stuff! This above is what I currently look like. Hmmm This was taken over Thanksgiving week so 3rd week of November. I do not know what my current weight is because I have throw myself into one of my usual challenges.
I am just using my fitnesspal account to track my food and doing my Slim in 6 series. One of the newer dvd I had not done yet. I will not be weighing in until January 30th. Helps me to want to stay focused on the work outs and eating right. But I do know before I stopped checking my weight was 173.6lb. Had to fight like hell to get there too because over turkey break I gained like freakin 12lbs but I lost it all.
I have not decided yet if I am going to start posting regularly again. Anyway thanks for reading as always. I look forward to hearing from all of you :-)
So glad to hear from you sweetie. Waiting a whole month to weigh yourself?!?!? Good for you. That has to take some major patience. You are absolutely beautiful my dear. It's ok about the college thing as well. I didn't go and I'm doing ok. Stay strong dear.
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Thanks for responding. Yeah I felt myself getting that itch this morning to check the scale. It was awful but I am still going strong.
DeleteThe whole college thing is no longer for me. I have...outgrown it. I guess I am trying to find a skill that I can take to another company that doesn't require a degree.
Good to hear from you and you're doing such a great job! Seriously you inspire. College is not for everyone, education is important as in terms of learning to read and do basic math but after that it's just not for everyone. If you don't like to study, then you don't... and that's that.
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That is so true! I just told elizabeth I have seriously outgrown college.
DeleteThanks for coming by. Makes me feel a little special. I think I may start trying to post a little bit more. Some of you are like in my mental mind....
So good to hear from you Winter and get an update
ReplyDeleteI often wondered how you were but I figure sometimes we just need a break and I respect that
You look beautiful in your photo
You've done some amazing work over the last while and are such an inspiration
Stay well
Take care of you x
Thank you. Yeah I wasn't myself for the past few months because I was so unhappy. I kind of still am but my head is in a different place at the moment so that helps.
DeleteI look forward to doing some more amazing work!
Welcome back :) its awesome that you will be here regularly again, we missed you...
ReplyDeleteBut...whats with that cutting thing...no,no,no...please stop doing that, no job or anything else is worth that...I know how frustrating and stressful things can get, but don't harm yourself, it will only get worse.
Your pic looks amazing, you look so much thinner and your hair looks so beautiful...stay strong and much love xxx
Hey Lara. I missed you too! Don't think I didn't see that engagement ;-)
DeleteI meant it when I said I was totally unhappy. I did not cut myself because of my current job but the fact that other companies say they like me an interview, tell me I well qualified and then don't hire me. It made me feel like shit.
Don't worry the hubby is making sure no more cutting happens.
Thank you, I feel like I lost some iches because that scale had not moved out of the 170's not once during these last 3 months.
Welcome back it is nice to hear from ya. Sometimes I think we all just need a small or long break just to refocus I am trying to come here more regularly but it really is not working for me lol. I am sorry about the job thing isnt there someone you can talk to about the company that did not have any other applicants and still did not hire you? sounds fishy to me? take care and good luck on the challenge
ReplyDeleteHi Linny. I know it is hard for you to get on here. You do have a family after all :-)
DeleteI know the company is full of crap but I let it go. If I was to go over the interviewers head and get a job. I am sure they would try to find some way to fire me and I don't have time for that when I got bills to pay.
So I sucked it up and now I am trying to see if I can move or do something in my current company. Although I don't think they want me to move up they really can't stop me either hahaha.
Good to see you posting again! X
ReplyDeleteHi there. I need to swing through your blog and see how you are doing. Thanks for the extra love :-)
DeleteSorry to hear about the job, but at least you seem to be taking charge and controling the things in you life that you can control. Also great pic your hard work is def. paying off :)
ReplyDeleteHi Onyx, thank you. I am still striving towards that goal. I did not meet my phase 2 goal and I am sure I wont meet the last one( phase 3 deadline for me is the end of feb )
DeleteIf I can still at least look good by July, that would be awesome :-)
I've missed you so much. I kept writing posts and thinking about what you would comment if you were still there, and it broke my heart. I kept on and on wanting to email you again, but after a while I felt like I didn't want to drag you back into this world of dieting and eating disorders, so I just saved my emails as drafts. But seriously, I have missed you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you're back, all the comments you've left on my blog posts have made me smile.
I hope you're okay.
Hey there. I was hoping I wouldn't freak you out. I mean I was only gone like 2 months and it feels like a year.
DeleteOh please I am always dieting. I fought my butt off to maintain and not gain. It was nuts.
awww *hugs* I am glad I was able to make you feel better. You are so awesome. Wished we lived in the same city. We could be skinny together and take on the world!
I've finally had a chance to read your blog after so long. I'm sorry it took me so long to do it. I've seriously missed you so much, thank you soo much for all the comments you left on my blog.
ReplyDeleteWelcome back my friend.
It's okay. You still came by and commented despite being busy. I really appreciated that. You just reminded me to rearrange my reading blog list. I like being able to go to my blog and know how people are doing from there. lol
DeleteI miss you guys too. I wont be leaving this time.