I love this photo of Angelina above. She looks so beautiful, like the perfect balance between thin and curvy. I figured I would come here and update. I have not been doing as well as I wanted to. I am so disappointed. I mean I am fine in the morning, during work, it is the evening that kills me. Then I want candy. Anything with sugar. I hate it because I know it is messing me up.
Been stressed at work over something I have no control over. A lazy coworker. She is making my job harder and one of my social buddies got mad at me saying I just whine all the time. I am always complaining. I wanted to curse her out I got so mad. I finally found a happy place with all my manager training and what not and I am so happy about it. I did not tell any of my coworkers except one because I don't feel like hearing crap from them. I expected more out of her but whatever, female friends are so hard to find.
My husband can tell that I am upset. I haven't been sleeping well. He can see that too. He looked so worried this morning and I felt bad. I keep having nightmares about random crap all the time. I am waking up 2-3 times a night. Yeah it's pretty bad.
Don't worry I will be catching on your blogs pretty soon. I miss reading what is going on with you all. Hope you are doing much better than me. Okay off to surf the net and hope to not stuff my face full of crap.
i fucking hate Angelina Jolie with the passion of a thousand asdspfjsfpsjkf not even gonna find something. there is nothing that transfers enough heat energy to describe the temperature change that occurs in me when i see Angelina Jolie
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babe, all of us have patches. mine have lasted for a year in fact. so it's okay. it's normal. and we'll support you no matter how much you weigh or how much you gained or what you're eating. we do EVERYTHING to support each other.
i find it harder to find male friends. then again, i'm veeeeeeeeeeeeery attracted to the female gender. it's my sexuality. i can't sit with a female friend that is attractive and not look at her figure or boobs. but yeah. female friends are hard to find, but so are male ones for me. most of my friends are female! like i'm talking 99%
:( for me, i realised that your sleeping and eating habits go hand in hand. a lot of people that are depressed would eat more and sleep more, whereas some people would eat less and sleep less. for ME, i eat less and sleep more when i'm depressed but i don't know when i'm depressed! i'm numb and indifferent so i don't notice when i'm depressed until i look at my eating habits and how much appetite i have. if my appetite is less, then there's a problem because i'm sort of a machine. i always have a good appetite unless something's wrong xD
let's hope but don't be too hard on yourself if not. just try to sleep better, babe. xo
-Sam Lupin
Whew glad this comment is still here. Lol I laughed so hard when you was talking about Angelina. I would have thought the girl bullied you in school or something. So sorry I had to subject you to her face so early in the morning.
DeleteMy sister is the exact opposite. She makes friends with males easier. I use to say when I was 19-20 years all the time. The female body is beautiful and should be appreciated. Don't get me started on my days back then. Lot's of stories lol.
Awwww I know you guys will support me no matter what. I just feel so stupid and loser like after dropping all that weight and now I can't get the scale to move for nothing. I think it did move this morning but it gave me such strange numbers. I was telling my husband about it and he doesn't understand why I keep getting so many numbers. You know him being a guy he will just get on the scale once and that is it. Yeah I can't do that.
I think it could be work related. So crazy with all that is going on. I dislike being depressed. I am not as depressed when I work out so I will continue to work for the good of the world lol.
I will try not to be so hard on myself but I can't make any promises ;-)
Hey I'm so sorry you're having such a tough time recently. Maybe the nightmares are being caused by the job stress? I really really hope the team leader position goes well. I'm so sorry your friends were so unsupportive, maybe they're jealous of your success?
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Take care.
Hey there, I was totally just thinking about you this morning.
DeleteI think you are right. I do believe it is job stress related. I realized I feel better mentally when I work out so now I like seriously want to work out every day now. I do not want to feel as crappy as I did a day ago.
They could be jealous. That is why I downgraded this chick from friend to social buddy. I am not saying you have to agree with everything I am saying but she missing the point all together.
Don't worry I am just training to be a Team Lead. Their probably wont be a position open for a year or longer. I would have to transfer to another store to get promoted. Sucky thing is that would result me in having to move and my husband is not having that. Lucky s.o.b. has an awesome job with awesome pay and awesome bosses. As usual I get stuck with whiny bitches lol.
I'm sorry to hear that your job is stressing you out so badly. Like Sam said, I also eat less and sleep more when I'm depressed or stressed. I hope you can get out of your rut and back to focusing on being happy. Lots of love.
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