So nice to see that sale finally moving in the other direction. Hopefully for good this time. Yesterday I worked out not once but twice. I did not want to see 79.7kg/175.4lb on the scale. Yeah that didn't happen. I wonder if my body was freaking out because this morning the scale tired to say I was 4lbs more. I knew that was total bs.
So I am still following my restricted eating. I would love to say fasting but I really am not fasting. All I am doing is eating breakfast not exceeding 200 cals and I will go all day without eating. Maybe a snack not exceeding 150 cals depending on the snack. I will then lastly have dinner which the calories are more most of the time. I am trying to remember the amount of calories I had for dinner. They vary. Like yesterday I know I had 800-1000 calories. Hubby ordered beef and broccoli with rice and lots of gravy. I had put the food in a small bowl but had went back for seconds. This is part of there reason I went for a second workout focusing on cardio only.
Hubby is also shifting again. Now he is not only whining about my food choices( unless I pick something healthy or he orders the fast ) now he is starting to complain about my liquid calories. Unbelievable. Any of you know when fasting or restricting a sugar beverage can be the best thing ever. I was trying to hold out until 7-8pm to have dinner. I asked him to fix me a lemonade. "why can't you have water? DO you really need the lemonade?" Yes I do. I love my husband but sometimes I wonder what the hell is he thinking. It's ok because one day he will be like me struggling to lose weight. He wants to gain weight so he is happy to put on some pounds. It's going to be interesting when he gets to the place of the weight coming on no matter what he does and it is hard to take off.
I hope it does not happen as I said and drive him crazy. I have seen him unhappy and I do not think I want to see him unhappy with his weight but at the same time. Maybe then he will understand what I am going through. My thyroid issues and body type makes it hard as nails for me to lose weight. I know he is thinking why can't you just make better choices. Well the heart wants what it wants. I am doing my best to try to please my body, mind and my damn self. That is hard enough without you making feel like shit every time I eat or drink now. *shake my head*
Alright going to catch up on some blogs, workout( try and get in a second one before bed ) and do some cleaning. Thanks to all the new readers. I usually tend to say hi right away but I have been slacking on that. June/July will be here before I know it. Have to see 54.5kg/120lb.
2 workouts in one day? Good for you. You are working super hard my dear. And don't let the hubby get to you. Just focus on what you want and what you want for your body. Let him work on his own issues. Hope all is well.
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Thank you Katie. I am okay today. It is just I feel like at times he can be so hard on me and not supportive enough.
DeleteI never looked at it as him having his own issues. Maybe he does and they are spilling over into my issues :-/
Ahh I love that you put your weight now in kg's I'm so tired of all the conversions stones to pounds to kgs...
ReplyDeleteYour hubby doesn't understand and he never will, unless he will one day be in the same situation...Guys are like that, not really sensible...but weight related issues and pointing them out is something that hurts us girls the most..
My issue is when food is around, if its not there I might not even think about it, but if its around lying on the counter or fridge I battle so much with myself if I should eat it or not. I don't like throwing food away, its such a waste considering how many people in the world are starving...So I'm happy when someone visits I feed them all the time :))
I know will reach many goals by summer and july...just listen to your body and your heart..and take care of yourself...sending you hugs and support xx
I do too! I love putting my weight in kgs. Plus it feels like I am losing more when the stupid scale decides to move.
DeleteHe knows that I tend to listen to him. Which I do, he always tells me improvements he wants me to make. I make the changes because I want to but this food and drink thing I find he is being crazy.
I dislike throwing food away too. I think that is why sometimes I will eat food that I should not being eating. I don't want to waste it.
I am so jealous of how small you are now. I can't wait to get to my ultimate goal weight yet alone my goal weight. The scale has been freakin nuts the past couple of days. I hope it will say a good( makes sense number ) Well shall see.
xD sexy face yikes
ReplyDeleteand i enjoy pounds more than kilos ^to Lara's statement.
i would've cried myself to death if my scale told me i was 4 lbs more
oh that sounds like it sucks
i have to eat like every 2 hrs or else i wouldn't exist
given i'm not eating like huge meals or anything but still
yikes i want to punch him in the butt i hate men
mine just tells me i'm perfect. both of them and i hate men. my girlfriend gets excited when i gain weight /she's adorable/
omg 54.5 kilos. yikes. i want that but my stupid whore of a dietitian is like 'DON'T GO BELOW 67 KILOS. THAT'S PERFECT FOR YOU'. fuck you. i've been to 145-147. NOT. enough at all
ew
i want my 58-61. :3
-Sam Lupin
Lol fuck yeah that is my sexy face hehehe.
DeleteI know that scale was lying and it did it again today. I hate that scale. I can't wait to get a new one. Tired of the lies.
I can now go hours without eating which is awesome. But the longest I can do it 8 hours. I can go 10 but I start twitching at the mouth.
Yeah my hubby is being stupid this past week or two. I feel like I do look bigger and I wonder if he senses that and sees that too and that is why he is acting like this. Makes me wonder how he will react when I get smaller.
I didn't know you had a girlfriend. Hahaha she likes you with some meat on your bones huh. Um yeah no that is not going to happen. 67kg is not enough.
58-61kg is pretty reasonable. My UGW is 47kg( shhhhhh don't tell anyone I told you lol )
Sounds weird to me... Why is he acting like that? Or maybe he jz trying to support u dear... Mens sometime are complicated. But still we love them... :-) or maybe he love the new you winter...
ReplyDeleteAs for me. I alwayz try to keep myself under 600cals a day... If i ate less than that i ll go crazy... My weight wont lose. Craving this n that... Hew hew hew...
Maybe but it sure doesn't feel that but that makes so much more sense. I can see him saying that. I am trying to help you thing. It's not helping though.
DeleteThat is not bad. I feel like I either eat everything or nothing. I am thinking about going back on my liquid diet. I just have not been able to get the scale to go down and stay down.
My cravings are the worst.....It can take weeks for me to burn out.