Boy if that isn't the truth. If it were easy everyone be thin and happy. This post is going to be rather short because I am pretty sleepy. Stayed up until 3am in the morning knowing my mother in law needed to get me at 8am. She is going out of town for her bday and wanted to get a car rental but she wanted me to take her truck and keep it. Hey that actually works out because now I can go to the two parties I was invited to tonight. Awesome.
I was coming in here because this has been a problem for hmmm about a year or so. If anyone remembers my old old post about my husband watching what I eat. At first he would make sure I wasn't eating mcdoanalds. He hates mickey d's but I could eat it 3 times a week for a month maybe two before I get tired of it. He hated that. So he would just get mad if I ate mcdonalds. Well the matter has increased.
Now he gets mad whenever I eat out period. When I say mad I mean he will not talk to me, he will not look at me. It makes me feel like shit. I mean I don't understand why he has to be so harsh about it. I mean I have to hide food because I know how he is going to act. It shouldn't be like this.
I am fasting or at least will give it a try for the next 4 days. Most of the time I can't even make it past 1 so this will be fun or short lived. It's moments like this were I just think about me getting smaller and smaller. Then he will be begging me to stop which I wont. You wanted me to stop eating shit how about I don't eat anything at all. I know it's stupid and immature but it is how I feel when he acts like this.
After nap will do some blog reading. Can't wait to see what you all have been up to.
Haha I can relate so much to that. My bf wanted me to lose "some weight" now he is begging me to gain some, just to be in the normal range..and that is exactly what I'm not going to do. Don't listen to anyone, you know whats best for YOU and your body..keep up your good work, sorry for not commenting on your posts lately, its just I've been dealing with so much, I just couldn't bring myself being here so much..
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Oh totally! Thank you. I mean these men can be so stupid sometimes. I love my husband don't get me wrong. He is great but this right here is his down fall along with not wanting to clean( that includes washing clothes )
DeleteDon't you worry Lara. You were dealing with your own demons over there. Hard to be supportive to others when your world is spinning out of control.
That would drive me crazy. I'm sorry you're having to deal with that. But don't do it just to spite him. Do it because that's what you really want dear. Good luck on your fast.
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Hahaha I already had a candy bar but I am planning to work it off before I go to this party.
DeleteIt's true. I should be doing this for myself, not him. Kind of hard with him giving me the freakin death stare.
Ugh, that's horrible, I'm sorry your husband is being so insensitive :( *hugs*
ReplyDeleteYour reaction isn't stupid or immature. He shouldn't get mad at you for eating out in the first place! Xxxx
Awwww Bella you are so sweet. Thanks I totally needed that hug. Now I feel so much better than I did before I laid down. Although I do need to take some meds. Allergies are killing me.
DeleteYeah my husband doesn't realize how bad this is. We talked about it before but he still reacts this way every time.
Hey Winter, I am sorry that your husband is being so mean, as if you need any more eating-associated issues. I would feel that way too, like I never wanted to eat again and that would show him etc. But just do what is right for you and your body, it's not his business if you want to eat out now and then.
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He knows but doesn't know at the same time that he is being mean. This time I know he was doing it because he was mad. He tells me all the time how additive to food I am.
DeleteI agree with you. I never nag him about his Taco Bell and hamburgers with egg and lots of other stuff on it that you could easily eat on for 2 days.
hell reading this makes me sleepy!
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that's exhausting im too antisocial for TWO parties.
wtf what a bastard
i hate most men
i wish a good percentage of them would burn in Hell except for Blondie hes a computer geek though. those are cute.
fasting? babe, im a bulimic. i fast/binge. or go through those cycles so much. and i'm telling you from now on: it will land into a cycle that isn't pretty if you fast. i've fasted for a while and gained the weight back on and more in the span of...2 days.
im not joking
:( and this would lead into another cycle.
i was in Hell when i was fasting.
-Sam Lupin
Okay this is my second time typing this response. Computer was being a jackass.
DeleteI only ended up going to the one party. I did not have the directions to the second one so that worked out.
I don't think my husband knows how much this is messing me up food wise. He makes it sound so simple and so easy for me to eat healthy. Not that I believe in excuses but during the t.o.m and stress it is hard for me to really focus like I want to. Then I also have a slow thyroid which makes weight loss fucking hard as hell to do.
What I am doing is not really considered fasting. I eat breakfast and then do not eat again until wayyyyy later. But it is working for me so far. Maybe because it is something new and different to my body at the moment. I should be 79.8lbs by noon.
dear winter, pls be strong (which i know you are).. nobody else understand our feeling.. my partner didnt get until now why i wanna go on diet. he feels like im fine (he like me curvy). but i hate it. oh sometimes i hope that we live near to each other so that we can support each other... =) stay strong n think thin.
ReplyDeleteHi Jane. My husband just sees me as a food junky and thinks taking it away from me is going to help. I don't know it's weird. Sometimes I just want to eat out. I tend to eat out only 1 maybe 2 times a week during t.o.m or stressful moments. He knows this but he gets mad anyway. I think it is because he likes the weight loss and doesn't want to see me get bigger again.
DeleteThat would be great if we did live close together! I am thinking thin for sure. I believe I will be 79.8lb by noon today.