I do not know how to feel about this. I was actually going to post something else. More positive and very informational for anyone who is trying to lose weight. I will post it tomorrow. Right now I need to get these thoughts out. I was talking to my husband tonight. He was driving home from seeing one of his friends. He went into the store and asked me if I wanted anything. I told him yeah I would like some Tollhouse cookies. He was like no. No? Then he is like yeah you need to start watching what you eat. I am not going to help you continue to destroy yourself.
Really? This says the man who fixed freakin pasta and chicken for dinner! I know he loves me and he just wants to see me happy but I mean is controlling what I eat and watching me every step of the way really going to help. I have already got to the point where I don't eat at work. It's been a week and I don't eat. I just use my meal replacement shakes. I feel safe. I almost wish he would except me drinking those at home. If he did I would be slimmer in no time.
On to more positive news. I sooooo did not make it not getting on the scale. Since the hubby was shoving fucking food in my face, I was like okay let me get on the scale 1st and see where I am at. I am at 204.8lb, not bad for night time. I am waiting to see 203 or less on the scale. I am still aiming in my mind to be 200lb by the end of the week. Kind of sad I will still be a chunky when I go to see my aunt in 4 more weeks. Still feeling sad about the hubby. Gonna go lay down now.
If she can do it so can I
Hey, I am sorry to hear your husband is being so unkind in relation to your eating habits, it must be really to have him wanting you to eat one minute and then trying to stop you eating cookies the next.
ReplyDeleteMy bf didn't really say anything so I brought it up last night because I was planning to eat in the morning anyway, and he said he will leave me if I become "anorexic". He said that he hates anorexics and wants to "punch them in the face". I'm not anorexic but that made me cry, what a horrible attitude, clearly I can't talk to him. I guess I already knew that though, that's why I have a blog.
I hope you're doing well.
Alice xx
Thanks for the reply. I mean he was not always like this. He is getting worse though. Like we were over a friends house and she went to give me a cookie and he slapped it out my hand and told her to stop feeding. Talk about bad choice of words.....
DeleteOmg I would cry to if my husband said something like that. I want to know why, though. Why do you hate anorexics? What did they ever do to you? Then you said you would leave me if I was anorexic. Where is the love? Smh.
Our little secret now for sure 0_o
hey Winter,
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear your husband is giving you hassle. I know that when someone tries to control me I usually turn to my eating disorder.
Thanks for your comments. Your support is much appreciated.
Much lovexxx
Anytime and thank you for your support. You are trying so hard. I just hope my issues don't mess you up any.
DeleteI'm sorry to hear that babes. I'm sure he meant well, he obviously loves you very much. My experience is that guys are mostly clueless about nutrition, so having pasta for dinner probably seemed like a good choice to him:) Maybe you could tell him how it makes you feel when he's controlling what you eat? Good luck xx
ReplyDeleteI have never explained to him that it is starting to bother me. I am afraid to say anything because he will not be so open with me after that. We have been threw something like this before and he shut me out. I don't want that to happen again.
DeleteLol yeah he does know nutrition. He ran cross country in highschool and was ripped due to the training and his diet. He doesn't gain weight easily so it is easy for him to eat pasta and whatever else junk he eats.
Oooh, he's one of those...Oh how I envy them! Hm, I'm sorry to hear that, I'm not good with relationships so I'm afraid that was the only advice I can offer :P Hopefully someone else can give you some useful advice! xx
ReplyDeleteLol no problem. I am just adjusting as I go along. He had the nerve to cook chicken nachos. I mean He eats no veggies and everything else, not even fruit and has the nerve to be telling me what I should eat. Whatever. I will continue to improve my diet plan around him. He will be happy with the results once I get there. Then I will tell him the truth.
DeleteWhy won't he let you use the shakes at home? They're not bad :s they have *Everything* you need nutritionally, in one serving (at least the visalis ones do and probably yours too?). How annoying! I feel for ya hun.. Got one like it myself, always telling me to eat, when I clearly gotta lose! Then telling me I need to get off my arse more! Just because I can't run around after the baby all day, doesn't mean I'm not out at the gym when she thinks I'm just dossing around ;) lol
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