Good morning. I decided to post today before I went in to work. College season, young adults going back to school or moving out for the first time. It is crazy at my job right now. I am ready for this month to be over with for that reason. I can't get any work done at all since my focus is on helping the customers. Oh well.
I am trying to remain stress free about everything. School, money, job, losing this weight. I almost had another panic attack last night. I was thinking about how if I don't get into school this semester I will have to start paying my school loan back, then I am thinking of how high the monthly payment will be if I add in the monthly interest( that is what gets most people, they don't pay the interest as they go along and in the end they still have the interest to pay )
Then of course I started thinking how I don't make enough money to even pay that. My job will start cutting back on hours in september. Although my hours have already been cut though. It's like I am still job hunting but it is not going anywhere. I have tried working with job agencies but they seem to be only interested in helping you if you have finished school so that is a no go for me. Then my current job has fired over 5 people in the past 2 weeks so I am praying that my head is not on the chopping block.
I also saw that certain people at my current job just got promoted and it pisses me off because every time I try to get promoted they give me this bs excuse how I need to learn more about the position but yet the person they hired knew less than me. Yeah I could report them but God did not instruct me to do that so I am letting it go.
Losing the weight is going okay. I am at that phase where it is like......crawling. I am kind of like thinking to myself. Hurry up! I have my phase 1 deadline coming up. Today is a rest day for me so no working out. I start week 2 of the jillian michaels tomorrow. Not too worried about. Believe it or not week 3 & 4 are the hard ones. I have never made it to week 4. This time I hope to and need to.
Oh and I think I am 187.8 Not a 100% sure because I could not weigh in at my normal time. I was hoping to be 186. Hmmm maybe by tuesday if anything. By the end of the week I would like to be 184 but we can't always get what we want can we. Okay enough rambling. I will talk to you all again soon.
Love the pic at the top of this post.
ReplyDeleteI empathise with the job issue thing - same thing happening at my work. I'm really stressed about it, but trying not to be. Bleurgh.
I really need to get myself into gear this week because oh my goodness, I've just been bad all week and the weight isn't going to come off if I stuff my face and sit on my ass.... Are you joining the challenge that FP is doing over at Zero Size Intentions? I think that'll be all good :)
Have a great day, lovely. Speak soon! x
Thanks, I like that picture too. I wish I could have had more of a positive post to go with the photo.
DeleteYeah it's been nuts. They had me doing petty work today which I was so not happy about. They have been keeping us late but yet we can't get over time either. Very annoying at times. I would like to leave when I am scheduled too.
I did get to 187.6 but the hubby cooked today and I don't want to turn down his cooking so I am sure my weight will be going right back up tomorrow :-( But tomorrow I get to work out so I should save face.
Huh, challenge. I have to go back and read it. I don't remember the challenge at the moment.
Okay talk to you soon too.
I think stress free is good. It's hard, but you just have to find that thing that relaxes you. Like for me, it's hookah. Last night I had a hookah night and I just didn't worry about anything. Good luck with your job, and remember to just your job correctly and with a smile and they should have no reason to put you on the chopping block.
ReplyDeleteI do all of those things. My sister is afraid they will try to fire me. I told her they would have to fight for it or find something really petty( like clocking in 1 minute late )
DeleteYeah I have not find a healthy way to deal with stress. Once it was going to clubs, then it was buying things.....Yeah so I need to find something else.
Hi Winter,
ReplyDeleteYou're right about trying to remain stress-free. You're doing so well, don't let anything ruin that :)
About your comment: I pierced nose and ear. Plus, I have another one in the navel that I got done when I was 15. Up to the age of 18, almost 19, I had navel, tongue, ear, and nose. I only need the tongue one to have pierced them all back haha I'm not sure whether I'll do it, though. But I do want to pierce the other ear, and have snake bites. But the problem with the snake bites is what you've said: jobs.
And my binging is, sadly, unrelated to that (stress). There's no excuse, really.
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Thank you for taking the time to respond and answer my question.
DeleteYou have a lot. I have the tongue, belly button, cartilage up top on my left ear and then right in the middle on both ears. I have not heard of the snake bites. I am going to look it up.
I feel like my nose is to big to get that pierced but I do believe they are cute on some women.
Your body is probably taking over and saying give me real food, more food or junk food. Sometimes all three. Right now my will to see that 175lb is a lot stronger than me wanting any those choices.
Stress-free is important. Trust life, things are gonna be ok even if uncertainty is killing and stress makes at least me cope with it poorly.
ReplyDeleteI <3 that last pic <3
You can do it all of this honey, don't think about it too much <3
Thank you! I am trying for sure. I am okay at the moment.
DeleteI know! I mean that girl has the flat stomach, slim look but skin looks so smooth. I mean it is a great balance. Her belly button is cute too. Mine is all misshapen from being overweight for so long.
Of course you will get to week 4..:) Stress is something unavoidable in our life, but is has so many negative affects on our body and well-being, we should avoid it at any cost. Especially weight loss. Just remember that there are things which are not in our hands, that we have no control over...so why worry about them..
ReplyDeleteTake care :)
Hi Lara. Yes my mom tells me that all the time. Remember that you have no control of certain things. Doesn't mean that it still wont get to me. Which is why I am trying my best not to let things get to me but it's hard sometimes.
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