Piggy's Challenge Weigh In #3

            Good morning.  I am still not completely my normal self.  So forgive if I sound a little mean or whiny which ever, not sure yet.  I will get to that a little later in this post.  Anyway now on to the main topic.  Today my weight came in at 178.8 making my bmi 30.69.   I can't wait to get out of that obesity range.  Very annoying to see it still saying that.
             I started my work out plan today.  Yeah it was a beast!  I couldn't do the whole 45 minutes.  I was able to do 30 though.  I will do my best to see if I can complete it though tomorrow.  I am challenging myself at the moment to do that work out at least 4 days a week for the next 4 weeks or month rather.  Oh I am doing the Slim in 6 by beachbody.com.  I do know their programs and work outs work.  You must be consistent with the diet and exercise.  I am looking forward to seeing the the changes.
             Okay so the problems are starting between the hubby and I.  I have been with him a long time before we married, 6 years.  If you have read my Venting post then you pretty much know I am of the edge of self destruction.  Hubby was looking at me today and he was like "you look so unhappy"  I was like "yeah I am unhappy".  He went on to express how it seems like he is back to square one.  I was like what do you mean you?  I am thinking to myself without saying it out loud is I am the one with the crappy job hours, management and pay. 
             He said he doesn't understand why I have it so hard since we have moved here.  I use to tell him that all the time and he made me look like I was crazy and overreacting. Now I guess he sees that I am not overreacting.  I am trying not to pull away from him.  Their is nothing he can do right now to make this right. Unless he asked me to quit my job which we can not afford to do so that is out of the question. I just want him to act normal around me.  Instead he keeps staring at me and trying to get me to laugh.  I don't feel like laughing right now. Sorry.  I know most women be glad to have a husband who does this.  I am grateful for him but I am on brink of cutting again and going into depression and that itself is taking a lot of energy out of me.
              My coworkers can now see that I am not me.  I don't talk to them as much.  I am not smiling.  I was told to go to another department yesterday. I assumed my manager would let them know and he didn't.  They thought I quit.  That is how much they notice I am not happy.
              I am also still trying to contact this HR recurtier that interviewed me over a week and a half ago.  She was suppose to update me and let me know if I got the job or not last week and she didn't.  I left her a message and she never called back so now I am trying to get a hold of someone who can tell me.  Yeah the answer may be you didn't get the job but tell me over the phone or via email.  I will keep calling until I get a direct answer.
              Okay off I go into hell to make pennies.  I will probably be posting again on wednesday.