Anyways I have been not so good emotional wise the past two days. Last week I had been interviewed but the job position I told you all I really really wanted. The interview went well, I passed the test, and I still didn't get the job. I did shed some tears but then I remembered I was still in the running for the other two positions. The lady that interview me was a recruiter so she wasn't even the hiring manager. She would pass my information along to the hiring manager and they decide if they want to bring me in for an interview.
I mean like after the interview not only did I have to take 2 test to prove my skills I was also sent an email explaining the benefits they have. So I thought everything was great. I was wrong. The recruiter to me I could email her if I had any questions. I asked her did I have to retake the test again to qualify for the other positions or were the test given depended upon the position. She didn't even respond to me. I just feel so....broken after that.
When I apply for jobs I take time to research the company as well as the job I am applying to do. I mean for it's like doing a research paper with 8 sources, 50 pages long, and getting an F on it. I put in a lot of work and it feels like it is for nothing.
I don't want to work for that company anymore because it is obvious they do not want me. Since I have been interviewed and probably in the system it's like now they run across my name and just automatically send out the rejection letter.
So now I am looking into this other company but not sure how to feel about them. They are always hiring which is not a good sign but I need something to give me the experience to go to another hospital or clinic and work. They always want you to have worked in a hospital environment. Very annoying on my part because I can meet every requirement except that.
Good luck, Winter! Hope things get better job-wise for you. And don't lose the hope, they haven't rejected you for the other positions. :)
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No they did turn me down for the other one. I am just waiting on one more. I suspecting they will turn me down for that one too.
DeleteI just need more income to save money. I am living paycheck to paycheck at the moment and I can't stand it anymore.
It's ok Winter, there is still one position left and you can't expect that you won't get it because there is a good chance that you might. Even if you don't get it, there are other companies and other jobs, I know things will get better for you.
ReplyDeleteAlso, 189.2! Awesome! Keep it up!
Alice xx
I feel a little better at the moment Alice. I would rather think I am going to get the job and then do get it compared to believing I will get it and then I don't.
DeleteYes this depressive mood has helped my eating habits tremendously lol. Plus it is that time of the month yet the scale is moving in the direction I want it too.
Keep up the great work with your diet!!
ReplyDeleteLooking for jobs can be frustrating. For me, I try to remember that "business" isn't "personal". Meaning they could have not hired you for any number of reasons and it has nothing to do with self worth. They just weren't looking for someone with your awesome skills. It's just a business decision they made and they can't make those emotionally or the company woudln't benefit. I hope that sounds supportive!! I just remember going through that with previous jobs and being a musician, I go through that mental process every time I have an audition, recording, or performance. You can wonder why, but don't let it eat at you. Just move on to somewhere else that will see your talents and strong points. :)
Be well!
Don't worry you do sound supportive. I take it personal because I live in a racist state. I feel like they pass me over because I am not what they want.
DeleteUsual when I do not get a job God makes it very clear to me why I did not get the job. Sadly most of the time it is because the hiring manager is intimidated by me. Trust and believe I don't want your job, just a job.
Yes I have moved to another two companies I am looking into. I am rebuilding my resume specifically for the position I will be applying for.
Wow you are a musician. You must have experience with this then. That is a hard business to break into. I at least only cried once during this time lol. The last time I cried for a week. I believe that was right before I started this blog.