Disturbed......

               There are no words to describe how I feel right now.  I am going to start off first by apologizing for not posting for the past couple of days.  I have been pissed off about my so called friends and social buddies.  I went into this binge mode for the past 4 days.  I am actually sick of eating.  I mean like I could have gone all today without food it's that serious.
               So I decided I am not going to weigh in for 2 weeks.  Am I nuts.....maybe.  I am kind of excited about going all out and giving it all I got for 2 weeks or rather a nice jump start.  Since I don't know what I weigh.  I know I better be 185lb by the end of that two weeks.  It is not a joke.
               I can honestly say that I do look slimmer.  That is nice.  I finally got my 1st compliment.  It was from my mother in law and I was in baggy clothes and she still noticed.  That is a nice feeling.  I want more......Need to lose more......
              I never told you all that I am writing a story.  More like a series.  I believe God told me to write this story.  I like to do outline's for my stories and write out the details later.  I do this for a more natural dialog.  The only people who know of the story in detail is my mother in law and my husband.  I have mentioned the story to 3 coworkers without giving details.  I usually carry the notebook with me at work.  I would write in it when I had a chance.  I would leave the notebook in my locker sometimes but very rare.  Don't know the combo to my locker at work so I never locked it.
            Anyway tonight I needed to go into the notebook and all my outlines......for 8 books are gone.  I worked really hard on those outlines.  I cried.  I mean I literally cried. This is the 2nd time in my life something of mine......of my creative mind was stolen.  I also draw.  I use to want to be a clothes designer and in my junior year of highschool someone stole my drawings and the teacher never found out who.  This time I believe the person stole to spite me.  The one with a motive.  I shall not say her name on her but she is the one who I use to be close to at work.  The one I stood up to over a week ago.
        I am still in shock and trying to remember everything I had planned for my characters.  Sad thing is I knew she was jealous of my work hours.  But to go this far..........I really need to get out of this company I work for.  This people are tainted, possessed and enraged.  I will do the only thing I can for them at this point.  That is to pray for them.  May God have mercy on them.