Hi, I am so tired. I need to be looking for jobs right now but I don't have the enegry. I think it is because I am not taking my meds. I need to get a refill but I have to wait until I get paid and that is if I have enough money. My manager cut my hours pretty badly. I went from 39 to 19 so I am going to be hurting. Yeah hubby can pick up where I left off at but he is more stubborn when it comes to money so I like having my own.
I made my goal weight for this past week of 168. So I am setting my goal of next week to be 164-165lb. The hubby bday is next thursday and I want to look good. I tried on this sexy lingire I had brought. The undies are a large and make me look fat. They huge way to tight. I was very disappointed. Different stores have different sizes. Apparently at this store I am an extra large.
I also find it annoying that my boobs look smaller but they are still a 40DDD/F. I don't like it. It is starting to look weird. I have these huge knockers and a smaller lower body. I am so annoyed because I don't see the point of having a reduction surgery until after I am done having kids. Which I plan to do in the next 3-4 years so no point in going threw that and paying all that money to have pregnancy undo the work.
Okay off to look for jobs......gotta take a mini nap 1st. So tired.........
This girl looks awesome. I am hoping to have after like this or better!
Hey hun, aww it sucks they cut your hours, but look at the bright side, at least you are spending less time there now. I hope it all works out ok.
ReplyDeleteGood luck reaching your goal this week :)
Alice xx
That is a good point. I do like that I am not there so much but hubby is not happy with the whole money thing which is adding to my stress.
DeleteHey girl, you are doing SO awesomely! Well done! You need to share more what you are doing so right! Lol
ReplyDeleteI have had almost 3 months off, due to UK and put 10 lbs back on *cries* I need help! And you are a total inspiration to me. I mean, I know I can do it, I've done it before, alone, but it's always good to have some back up x
Keep up the good work x
I thought you had forgot about me over here. I am literally doing the meal replacement shakes I mentioned I think in my 2nd or 3rd post.
DeleteYes indeed, back up is good. You want to know anything else just let me know :-) Sooo nice to hear from you.
which shakes are they exactly? and how many meals do you eat in a day with them?
DeleteWhat workout plan are you doing? Coz, you seem to work out a *lot* and I think that is definitely helping, coz you'll be building muscle and muscle burns fat =D You're awesome missy! Don't ever let anyone tell you different!
I am just now seeing this. I am going to go to your profile and see if I can inbox you.
DeleteNever forgotten hun! Just been in a really bad place and hiding from the world =/ I keep meaning to update, but can never seem to get around to it... we'll see about tomorrow!
ReplyDeleteHey, beautiful:)
ReplyDeleteThis is my first time here, as a visitor, but I will definitely start reading. I can see that you're doing amazing, and lost a lot of weight. Unlike me, who has been gaining because of the mental help I'm receiving. Anorexia is a mental illness which affects the physics, right? I must admit I'm driving through a rough time of binge eating (non-purging phase), but I'm determined to starve again.
Again, I'm really amazed of how you've been so disciplined, I could never lose that much. No-no, I know you've overweight, but I don't claim that's your problem, but I admire you at any point. I really want to lose that much, oh gosh, people might look at you as a survivor. Unfortunately I wasn't overweight in the starting point, note that's actually a minus, so people won't admire me when I lose weight. Sad isn't it?
Oh, bullshit! I've not read enough of your blog to say whether you're Pro-Ana or not, but I accuse you for being Pro-Ana because of the Thinspiration. That's not anything bad, I must admit I'm one myself. I can't help it, it's like drug. An addiction.
People always worry and they try to prevent Pro-Ana. They also try to prevent drugs, but is that working? No! So why do we worry?
Oh my...don't report this message because I'm talking s*** about the preventers of Pro-Ana, cause I'm sick. I'm as sick as the successful anorexics, and I can't stop it. Not unlike them.
You see, I feel you and I know what you mean about getting tired and the happiness Of losing weight (in the end you are miserable because you don't weigh less), but this is a disease no one really understand. We all have to stick together, if you know what I mean...
Love
Allison
Lol I am just now seeing this message and I am not mad at you at all. I would be considered to be ednos if a doc was to really take me seriously. I support people in the ways they want to be supported. Rather is losing weight, fasting, stop binging. I want to be nice, no need to be mean.
DeleteYou are right that people will not like seeing that you are losing weight again but you deserve to be happy. We all lost differently. Like at the moment I can not bring myself to eat 5-6 small whole meals a day. I am going to stick to my fruit and veggie shakes.
Cute underwear too.
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Cute underwear? Where?
DeleteYou can do it :)
ReplyDeleteThank you. This not my real weight number at the moment but I give myself a month to get there.
DeleteI love your progress, its like most people have ups and downs, with gains every now and then, but in the last couple of weeks you have done amazing..
ReplyDeleteI hate sizes too because they are different at every store. That is why I always try things on before I buy them..but also have things which I bought that are too small or really tight..I use them as a motivator :)
Hope you're feeling better...and I can't say it enough, your manager is an ASS!
Take care
Lol I love the part about my manager because you are so right. I may have a possible new job so I am super excited and hope everything goes through.
DeleteYes! I am okay with it, like you said it is my current motivation and I hoping to fit in my sexy panties by Valentines Day at least. I hoping to be close to my UGW by then so I should be fitting into them >.<