I have been feeling weird today. Like an out of body experience. I know it is weird but I didn't want to tell my husband and make him worry. Like I felt like cutting myself. It's weird but I just get those urges to pull that blade out and go to work. Sad thing if it was not for my parents and hubby I would probably still be cutting. It makes me feel better and beats stuffing your face.
Speaking of stuffing my face......had peanut butter twix today. I went to the 7-11 after I had got done washing the clothes. I brought 4 of the king size and only 1 remains. Tomorrow or well depending on the time this post starting today I am going with no sugar so I was thinking let's go to town hahaha. Sad thing is my morning started out great. Plain oatmeal, sausage and margarine. After that I can't think of the name for the dish but whatever. Then their was cheese-its followed by hubby's dinner. He cooked lean pork chops, mash potatoes and broccoli.
Okay getting sleepy now and I do need to get up tomorrow to do my workout and get ready to go hang out with this married couple I really don't feel like seeing. Oh by the way hubby has us going a gym sometime next week. I am excited but at the same time not. He doesn't want me going to the gym alone. He is worried about my safety. I am glad he is but sometimes he takes it too far. Kind of getting annoyed with him wanting to know every where I am going, when am I coming back and can he come along.
that experience is the fucking worst ugh
ReplyDelete:( i hope you won't cut honey
it makes me so sad when people self-harm. because in the end, from what people have told me - you do regret the cuts. it just feels right at that time.
it will pass, darling, it will pass <3
yummy. Twix though. that shit can be addictive. sugar is addictive shit.
what the fuck
your husband's being your Father. that is just so annoying I don't like that at ALL. fucks sake.
-Sam Lupin