I don't know what to say right now. I feel like I am in a really really strange place. I feel like my body is here but I am not. I have been feeling like this for the past couple of days. It's like I am just....... just here. I am trying to understand why am I feeling this way. I don't like it. I feel like it is going to continue and grow. I feel myself wanting to cut. I haven't so don't panic but this feeling or feeling like I am not here is strange.
Besides that I am pretty focused on my current work out program. I am thinking of what to do next. I have to change my routine to keep myself focused and not bored. I may use my Biggest Loser DVD The Last Chance workout. I think I could use some more toning. I always do cardio but need some kind of toning exercise. I know I am loving this just work out 4 days a week. It is something I can stick to.
I have also managed to stop snacking so much at work. I turned down chicken fingers, chicken fried chicken, and a bunch more junk I can't think of. I have gotten into the habit of drinking hot tea with honey and it is so good. I love it! I have been cooking at home more often. This is helping me to save money big time. I want to start getting into more clean fresh foods. I am on canned and bagged veggies. Better than nothing though right. Same thing for fruit. I use to eat fruit a lot but since I found out it has mostly sugar. I don't care to eat it much.
Hope you all are doing great. Going back into my little corner.
Oh baby girl, everyone goes through funks when they don't know which way is up. But one thing that you have showed all of us is that you have personal strength and the ability to persevere even when you're feeling shitty or at odds with yourself. The sun will come out again. Just try to stay focused on yourself and if you need to have a little meltdown then get the bad feelings out so you can make may for something more positive. It will get better and we are all here for you. You're so strong Winter. Don't lose sight now.
ReplyDeleteI'm so impressed that you can do that dvd, I watch the biggest loser every single week and the hell that those people go through is insane. I mean, I'm half the size of most of the people on that show and they are ten times more fit than I. It sounds like you've hit a good groove with the diet and exercise. Thinspirational. Keep strong gorgeous! Xo
I'm so sorry you're feeling so detached recently. I really hope you're okay and that it doesn't last. Maybe try to find something to make you feel more grounded and alive? Like a new hobby or something you just love that can rid you of those feelings?
ReplyDeleteYour progress is incredible. You're so strong and amazing, you honestly are an idol to me.
I'm so sorry I disappeared and stopped commenting for so long. I seriously hope you're okay.
Take care, love you. xxx
There is nothing wrong with eating bagged (I guess you mean frozen right?) veg.. They are normaly picked and frozen at their best.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better soon..
sorry for being awol for so long.. things have been really hectic here :( Im gonna post a couple of pics of the kid so you can see his "outfits" ^^