Hello. Sorry for the bad word in my title. I try not to cruse so much but sometimes it can not be helped. My weight is 177.4lb/80.6kg. Seems like forever since I have seen that number. Can't wait to see 76.4kg/168.0lbs. I was 19 the last time I weighed 76.4kg. I have been wanting to post this since back in January when I started posting again. It is a real shame that females can not just be supportive of one another. It seems like it is getting worse with each generation.
As I have mentioned before. I have been dealing with this competition going on with two of my coworkers T and P have been....not so good lately. When I started losing weight last year they noticed after the 1st 20lbs. I was not looking for compliments or anything but they made nice comments. By time I reached 30lb, they wanted to know what was I doing? Now it is death stares and T and P have shut me out.
T has lost weight and she looks great. I mean she already had guys asking her for number all the time when she was her size 15/16. She is now a size 13/14. If she keeps up whatever it is she is doing, she will be a 11/12. I refuse to let that women beat me. It's bad enough she wants every guy kissing her ass and constantly flaunting her weight loss. I mean she tried flirting with my husband but he doesn't like her, hehehe.
P is nothing to worry about. She has not worked out in forever. She does watch what she eats but without the exercise at her age, her weight wont go anywhere. For the most part she was always good to me until T influenced her and she started to act different towards me, not as nice and something else I can't explain.
The last I will say is my family. More so my mom and sister. They are not mean at least. My sister has always been smaller than me and my mom well she always compares me to her. Saying I have a food addiction problem. I will always struggle with my weight like her. It gets hard hearing that after a while. I know she means no harm but it still hurts. The worse is the women on my dad's side of the family. The first thing they always comment on is weight. Very annoying. It's why my sister rarely goes to the family dinners anymore. I mostly look forward to up showing my snobby aunt.
She married my uncle. He has been married to her for 6 years and doesn't know how much money she makes. It's so crazy. I use to think she was nice but I realized over time how she would always point out the things that was upsetting me in life. Like 2 years ago she threw in my face about me not finding a good paying job. And fuck you too.
I am going to kill it this year. At the moment I don't care about my weight. I know I would love to be a 7/8 by time I go up there in june. Haven't wore that size since I was 12 lol. I will succeed.
Hey lovely. I'm sorry people are being bitches. People be cray. Maybe a suggestion..or this is just something I've been noticing myself, is that with weight, when it's been a lifelong journey, maybe we're meant to be different weights as we get older..for instance, I'll be 20 in two months, I weigh more, but I still fit the same clothes I had when I was 16... obviously I'm getting older and your body shifts as you age. I know you want to be a 7/8 like you were when you were 12, and by no means am I saying don't strive for that, you should want to be whatever size..but maybe think about evolving your weight/body instead of expecting to look how you were when you were a teenager? Idk, it's just a thought I had. Sorry if it sounds weird.
ReplyDeleteHey girl, just started reading your blog!
ReplyDeleteIt's really hard to not care about what people think. I do every day even though I try my hardest not to. You'll reach your goal! It just takes a little time.
I'm sure you will see the other number in no time! GL with everything!
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