Weight 198 blah

         This stress is killing me!  I really need to just turn my brain off.  I have to be to work in 4 hours and yet I can't sleep.  I did manage to get in at least 4 hours but knowing me and my body that is not enough and I am going to be really cranky.  I also work the next 6 days in a row.  My manager did not do this in purpose but that doesn't make it any less annoying.

          Well I have still been doing the shakes but just for breakfast.  Like lunch and dinner have been murder I tell you.  I just eat whatever.  No counting calories, over eating, not feeling bad.  I mean it's just nuts.  When I go to work today I am leaving my card behind.  I wont be able to buy lunch.  I have no choice but to eat the food that I bring which is not much at all.  I need to stop being lazy or picky which ever I am doing I don't know.

           Doesn't help that I have not been working out.  I mean I don't have the energy to do it.  Then hubby backed out on us getting a gym membership.  He said we wont have the time soon.  It was a 24 hour gym but whatever.  I can't use the gym on site because they are redoing it and taking fucking forever.  I mean the shit has been down 1-2 months.  How long does it take to remodel?  I mean they finished our laundry room already but not the gym, smh.

            Oh and I found a school that I like!  A hair school.  Now it is seeing what I get approved for in student loans for this school.  I hope it cover 80-90% and all I have to do is pay 10% out of pocket in monthly payments because other than that I would not be able to go.  Classes start Oct 15th.  I wanted to do the July 30th but adviser said it is full already which surprised me.  I know my first 10 weeks will be in the classroom which doesn't bother me.  I am just glad to be somewhere where I don't have to be surrounded by food.

             Did I forget that to tell you guys that hubby is getting a slight promotion.  He is getting his night position taken away( they are doing away with over night positions at his company so all night people are screwed )  They offered him a day job.  Great. Awesome.  If we had two cars.  This is going to be a pain in my royal ass.  I am going to have to get up during rush hour to drop him off at work 7am then go to my job, get off pick him up at 7pm.  When I am in school it will be the same damn thing except I wil be headed to school.

               I know I shouldn't be complaining over something so small but damnit I hate not having my own car.  I have not had my own car since I moved here with my husband.  Until then when I started driving I had a car from day 1.  Sometimes I hope his ass thinks about how much shit I have to put up with ti make him happy here.  I dislike how the people are back in my home town but at least I would have a car, my family, more help than I have here.

              Okay I am done for now.  Gonna try to go back to sleep.